* I find Him in alone-ness.
And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray.
Matt 14:23
The day that Jesus found out that his cousin, John, had been murdered he leaves the crowd and gets in a boat and goes to a quiet place so that he can be alone. When the crowd hears where Jesus is, they follow him and wait for him on the shore. When Jesus got back he saw them and had compassion on them and healed the sick. Evening came and the disciples felt like Jesus should send the crowd away because it was suppertime. But Jesus tells them “no”. He feeds 5000+ people with 5 loaves of bread and 2 fish.
—Then —
Jesus immediately sends his disciples ahead of him. Then the Bible says that…
“…after he had dismissed the crowds he went up on the mountain by himself to pray.”
Q: How did he dismiss the crowds? Not physically but from his mind?
I wonder if this was hard for Jesus. I mean he was a man of emotion and feeling. He was a man of compassion, a man who grieved, who felt loss, and gave, and understood their needs. Dismiss them? How? Why?
Why…?
Jesus needed ‘me-time’…alone time. (That’s what Caius calls it.)
He went away so that he could rest in, get direction from, be empowered by, and glory in his Father. Returning renewed so that he could continue to give himself away by loving and teaching, praying for and laying himself down for the crowd…all the way to the end.
How…?
Still learning. Still listening.
July 3, 2010 at 3:48 pm
Then not alone, just focused on his father. I think maybe like taking a photograph. Seeing,imagining,considering one thing. separated from everything else.The only things that exist are the Subject and you.Maybe the beauty of solitude on a starry night but more.The sound of one perfect note heard only by you and the Great musician.A moment without division. I think your onto something there sheramblings.
July 6, 2010 at 5:02 pm
Alone time is the best – everyone needs it and if you don’t think you do – – then you really really need it badly.
July 8, 2010 at 8:58 am
Alone time. But how alone are you when God is always with you? Haha! ;D
Well about alone time.. I treat it as a routine instead of something special. It’s been dull and uninteresting. I never seen to experience Him when I’m having “alone time”.
How is it with you? I saw that you really reflect much and journal them down.
Keep it up and grow more and more spiritually! =D God Bless!
-Leon